"Vesna" by Phil Collins was a work of art made so that you would fall in love with the subject.
I’m finding it difficult to let go. I’ve got mourning down pat however.
I am jumping, skidding, halting. I finally fixed my bike, going for a short ride today around somewhere that isn’t mine. I don’t even want to claim it. I want to seek an unknown, simply open my eyes to a world before me and say, “Okay. Or rather, Yes. This, right here.”
I want simple declarations that can be echoed and heard for years and miles.
Memories that make me feel ashamed: whenever I bake with cranberries I inevitably put some of the batter mixed with raw cranberries into my mouth which elicits many cries and an oozing red mixture, during a game of truth or dare when I claimed my most embarrassing moment was accidentally stepping into a garbage can at school (which only ever contains papers) but rather it was realizing I was the tallest student in my entire fourth grade class, every time I looked at the crotch of a teacher or professor.
My language is looking, is seeking, is self-defining but will never be the kind to self-efface in order to receive aggrandizement or congratulations which are not due. Do not tell me you are different, I will never believe you. I shouldn’t have to simply believe you, I should be able to see and define the boundary for myself.
There is nothing worse than a lukewarm bath when your skin is ready to brace, precursor to worry has already embedded into the belief of what the word hot can mean.
My desires are not for purchase, but constantly for sale by what I see, what I taste. I know what I enjoy, what heat feels excellent as a flux occurs between small bumps and pulses and the ends of long strands.
A sudden question of what am I doing, where am I living, where have I even been for the past three months. Flux, moving, motion: a full bag at every opportunity, wearing pants until you can see the stains beyond the dark washes, layers of shirts.
I finally fixed my bike up today after too long without riding it. She’s lovely, fine. I enjoy the feeling of a twist, a nudge making something perfect. I also felt incredibly alien today, a room of tables twisted together into a rectangle. Boxes overflowing of potential, overmarked and overpriced mingling with finds and losses stacked upon the rectangle while I struggled to find how to speak, how to connect with someone who feels the need to explain every detail to me when the details are already in print before my eyes. I just wish I didn’t feel a need for defense, I wish I didn’t feel it’s somehow become a natural specialty.
But at its worst, the dining public is a brainless herd, grazing with the flow of traffic without thought, shepherded by food writers and chefs: there will be foam, there will calcified root vegetables, there will be twigs and shit, sea urchin makes everything better, more bacon, more fat – more, more, more!! And this is a problem. For, the dining public, remember, has the power of the purse. It is the pocket that feeds the byways and highways of commerce.
So, if the dining public is uninformed, misinformed, or misguided – not educated enough to know when to walk away from the table – then everyone loses. The tyranny resides not in the kitchens of high-end restaurants. It is among the masses.
13 Must See Stargazing Events for 2013
— Listed In Chronological Order
1) January 21 — Very Close Moon/Jupiter Conjunction
A waxing gibbous moon (78% illuminated) will pass within less than a degree to the south of Jupiter high in the evening sky. Your closed fist held out at arms length covers 10 degrees. These two wont get that close again until 2026.
2) February 2-23 — Best Evening View of Mercury
The planet Mercury will be far enough away from the glare of the Sun to be visible in the Western sky after sunset. It will be at its brightest on the 16th and dim quickly afterwards. On the 8th it will skim by the much dimmer planet Mars by about 0.4 degrees.
3) March 10-24 — Comet PANSTARRS at its best
First discovered in 2011, this comet should be coming back around for about 2 weeks. It will be visible low in the northwest sky after sunset. Here are some sources predicting what the comets may look like in the sky; 1, 2
4) April 25 — Partial Lunar Eclipse
A very minor, partial lunar eclipse (not visible in North America) where only about 2 percent of the moon’s diameter will be inside the dark shadow of the Earth.
5) May 9 — Annular Eclipse of the Sun (“Ring of Fire” Eclipse)
It will be visible in Northern Australia and parts of Papua New Guinea but mostly within the Pacific Ocean. See all the solar eclipse paths for 2001-2020 here.
6) May 24-30 — Dance of the Planets
Mercury, Venus and Jupiter will seemingly dance between each other in the twilight sky just after sunset as they will change their positions from one evening to the next. Venus will be the brightest of all, six times brighter than Jupiter.
7) June 23 — Biggest Full Moon of 2013
It will be the biggest full moon because the moon will be the closest to the Earth at this time making it a ‘supermoon’ and the tides will be affected as well creating exceptionally high and low tides for the next few days.
8) August 12 — Perseid Meteor Shower
One of the best and most reliable meteor showers of the year producing upwards of 90 meteors per hour provided the sky is dark. This year the moon won’t be in the way as much as it will set during the evening leaving the rest of the night dark. Here is a useful dark-sky finder tool.
9) October 18 — Penumbral Eclipse of the Moon
Visible mostly in Asia, Europe and Africa, at this time the 76% of the moon will be covered by the penumbral shadow of the Earth.
10) November 3 — Hybrid Eclipse of the Sun
A Hybrid Eclipse meaning, along its path, the eclipse will turn from Annular to Total and in this case most of the path will appear to be Total as there will be a slight ring of sunlight visible near the beginning of the track. This one will begin in the Atlantic (near the East Coast of the U.S.) and travel through Africa. See the path here. The greatest eclipse (with 100 seconds of totality) will appear in Liberia, near the West Coast of Africa.
11) Mid-November through December — Comet ISON
The second comet this year, ISON, could potentially be visible in broad daylight as it reaches its closest point to the Sun. It will reach that point on November 28 and it is close enough to the Sun to be categorized as a ‘Sungrazer’. Afterwards it will travel towards Earth (passing by within 40 million miles) a month later.
12) All of December — Dazzling Venus
The brightest planet of them all will shine a few hours after sundown in the Southwestern sky and for about 1.5 hours approaching New Years Eve. Around December 5th, a crescent moon will pass above the planet and the next night Venus will be at its brightest and wont be again until 2021.
13) December 13-14 — Geminid Meteor Shower
This is another great (if not the best) annual meteor shower. This year put on a show at about 120 meteors per hour and in 2013 it won’t be much different so expect another fantastic show. However, the moon - as it is a few days before full phase - will be in the way for most of the night obscuring some of the fainter meteors. You might have to stay up in the early morning hours (4am) to catch the all the meteors it has to offer. If you missed 2012’s Geminid Meteor Shower, here are some great photo-sets; 1, 2, 3
Robert Rauschenberg: CY + RELICS, Rome, 1952
official plan for this year: continuation.
The number twelve is often used in trade, when buying or selling goods. Twelve gods, twelve sons, twelve tribes, twelve apostles, twelve pairs of rib bones
A home in Gothenburg, Sweden.
Photo from the real estate agency Alvhem.
אני מכיר אדם
שצילם את הנוף שראה
מחלון החדר שבו אהב
ולא את פני זו אשר אהב בו
I know a man
who photographed the view he saw
from the window of the room where he made love
and not the face of the woman he loved there.
— I know a man, Yehuda Amichai